I am going to get back to the simple truth Friends, God is
at work among us, but it is a mess.
I am
writing today to share with you how it works around our house. I am writing with a motive--so let’s just
get that out of the way now, we need some financial help to keep doing what we
are doing, or to even do what we are doing bigger and better, which I confess
scares to me death. We are hosting a fundraiser On Sunday December 4th, 2016 at 3pm at the Northern Lighthouse Church. We will be talking about our ministries and sharing the reasons we need monthly support. We will have a lovely video or two, some testamonies and dessert and COFFEE, roasted by our own Todd Schmeeckle. We are hoping for a commitment of 2,000/month, this would cover the rent on the house we are renting for our transition house and the utilities. ANYWAY, let’s
just get back to the simple, the bless of the mess, because God woke me up this
morning with a truth in mind and hopefully the words to explain it.
When we
moved into community 8 years ago, I had no idea what God was doing. But when I got married in 2008, I gave my
husband a Bible with this written in the front of it “I love you and love what
God is doing and going to do with us! Forever with you will be a glorious
adventure!!” Our life has been an
adventure. Instead of a dream house in
the suburbs we bought an apartment building in T town with another couple, and
a BUNCH of other people who worked at the homeless shelter with my hubby. Without a super clear vision, we began our
work, to live simply enough, so we could work part time and still do
ministry. What ministry? Well the one that involves loving "the least
of these"….and God gets to pick who they are, and He is the best at it (that was a good lesson we learned).
So we
learned to open our lives and our families to what God was doing and He has
done a great work. I think the major
lesson that I have learned is that I need help…..…. well not just me, we all
need it right? But here is the thing, as
I realize that I need help and accept it, God uses my need for help for HIS
glory, HIS purpose and it helps others.
So in my need for help, the act of helping me can bring blessing on the
person helping me. This sounds either slightly
profound, or like I run a cult, geez I hope I am not running a cult. (people joke about that when you buy a
community…and all live together….but I promise you the guy with guns just moved
out!!) Anyway, I am going to try to give
you some examples of the way this works and hope that you too, can see God’s
humor and glory in our lives.
I think
I am finally starting to see that God uses who we are to do His work. So in reality, in the simplest terms, I learn
from Him how to be the best version of myself, meaning, the most fulfilled in
Him version of myself and He then uses it to build His kingdom. So it ALL comes from Him (I am flowing in some Paul here). Here’s the funny thing, all of these stories
of me being the “best version of myself” are stories of me being a complete
mess….the part I am trying to get at is, I was able to open my arms fully to
the person God sent to help me, that is Him using me, I am an accepting, loving
person and the scary doesn’t scare me, but I am a mess and need HELP.
So here
goes. Two years ago, I had a baby. This came about 1 year and 1 month after we
brought Simon home from Bulgaria. Simon
is non-verbal, non-walking, has auto aggression problems and has a whole slew of
other special needs but God used us, our mess, to bring him out of a horrible
place (we aren’t saints we just said YES).
Anyway, so here I am, Simon has been home for a year, he is still
hitting himself a lot, getting him dressed and changing his diapers is hard and
for the past 4 months, I haven’t been able to do much of his care because I
have been pregnant (Simon kicks hard, so I kept the belly away from him). I am home from the hospital with June and
nursing is going the way nursing goes for me, it is flipping hard and painful. The first night Jon had to work and I was
alone with the kids, Simon needed a diaper change and was hitting himself and
June started crying….and so did I, but I also called Adam.... he wasn’t home, but
he turned his car around and came home, to hold my baby. Ah, community….but wait, Adam isn’t why I was
telling this story, although I really do miss him. (He moved out, he was the hunter….remember
the guy with guns I mentioned earlier? J).
When
June was about a month old, we got a phone call from someone at our church,
saying there was a girl who wanted to come to church the next day but she
needed a place to stay that night. So I
packed up my baby and went to pick her up.
That was when I met KH, and this is the point of this story. KH was coming off of meth and was ready to
quit and was homeless. We were just going
to give her a place to stay for that night but you know what happened? We let her stay for a while longer….it was
not all puppies and rainbows but do you know what happened? KH LOVED Simon, she would sit with him for
hours, tapping his cheek (this is what he LOVES and it helps calm him down and
stops him from hitting himself). Anyway,
KH was able to come into my home, be herself, love Simon and in that she found,
a purpose and a need that only she could fill, it was a job MADE for her, MADE
for her in her mess. Also remember, I
was a hormonal mess of just having a baby and struggling to nurse. Having KH around to help me with Simon also gave
me a purpose and was a blessing in my life too.
All I did was open my home and God
brought me someone to help with Simon while he made the hard transition from
being the youngest to being the middle child.
And you know what KH learned about God, after staying with us in our
home, in our community? She said for the first time in her life “she could
believe that God loved her.” That is the
truth I hold onto when I see that she is still struggling in her
addiction. God used my mess and her mess
to bring Him glory and bless us BOTH. (Well
ALL of us really).
Another beautiful example is in a
woman who was escaping a bad relationship; she came into our building at just
the right time. Again, remember me as a
mother of 3, who works part time, homeschools, volunteers at church and runs
the books for the community, I am busy, I am stressed, I am pretty much a
mess. AW came to us with a LOVE of
children, and you know what, she is AMAZING with kids. She started just giving my husband and I time
together, or time for me to go to counseling J
and blessed us by watching our kids without payment. In fact, when we would come home she would
THANK us for letting her spend time with our kids. She tells us that it is like therapy for her
to be with our babies. Talk about
God. All I do, is accept people who come
to help me. That is how our community
works, that is how God works.
JD moved into the R12 house a month ago after paroling out of prison, but my 2 year old daughter June, LOVES him. I think it is probably because whenever
adults are standing around talking, he is making faces at her and playing peek
a boo. I think he is a child at
heart. He has also been struggling to
find work due to his record but has been BUSY helping us do some work around
the community. Again, God has brought us
someone who is blessing us and is blessed, because on his own, alone in an
apartment, struggling to find work, JD would not have the same sense of LOVE,
acceptance and VALUE that he has in our community. And all we have to do, is tell him the TRUTH
of God’s love for him….and JD can believe it because he sees it lived out….he
sees that he has a place in our community, he has worth, and he is more than
just his criminal record and can be a blessing to our family.
Now, here is it….every person I have
shared about has been struggling financially.
That is where we need some help.
Our dream is to have some financial partners who can donate to us
monthly so that we can keep helping not only the JD and FL, the men in the R12
house paroling out of prison but also the AWs, because as she tries to reunite
with her children, she has been struggling to make rent. We want to be able to show some grace, to
accept help/services in the form of payment for rent, however, that is not how the bank works, they
seem to want money, not cookies for the mortgage payment. If only there was a Jesus bank….I bet he
wouldn’t charge interest on our loans!!
We
would like to buy the R12 house (right now we are renting),…..but we also have
some broader……bigger visions…… we have a dream of someday running a business
that could provide jobs for these guys coming out of prison (T.E.A.M. Bean) who
struggle to get work because of their record.
We would like to have money coming for support staff for the R12 house--someone who can give guys rides, and be a listening
ear/life coach. And to be honest, I
wonder if I could be a writer and musician…I have a vision of helping those in
prison write music….but I struggle to have the time.
So that is what I wanted to tell you, I want
you to know that I have finally figured out the way our community works….it is
broken people (me) who want to help other broken people (addicts, parolees,
abused women) who accept help from said, “broken people” and God uses it to
heal us ALL and bring us All into his kingdom.
Would you want to support our vision?
Would you be able to give a one time gift or a monthly gift to support
what we are doing at the Bolivar House and the R12 house? I can even make it tax deductible! God bless your mess, friends, may He
help you to ask for help, and may you see the help transform the world around
you!!!
How can you give? Well, you can use paypal to give right from this blog if you want! Or you can message me/call me/write to me.